Jeanne H Barnett's Blog

Thoughts Outside the box

like A LIGHT BEAM
FROM an alien Space ship,
the Light draws
a human’s “being” (essence) to it –
there is a “natural” longing
stirred within for this Light with
no defined understanding of it
and a feeling of something missing
when it is not present —
it is beyond human understanding
and, as humans,
we do NOT tend to like
NOT understanding –
we insist on defining everything
according to our limited heart/mind
and declare our definition is “truth” . . .
this blocks our heart/mind
from receiving TRUTH
which, when received as a child,
simply requires acceptance
without definition, “faith”-
belief in what I cannot see is “faith”-
and relying only on what I can define
is indeed human arrogance,
a remarkable,
overwhelmingly blind arrogance –
a path I have confidently walked often
. . . maybe even now . . .

L.I.G.H.T. – losing to darkness
Love—Integrity—GOD—Hope—Truth
has been almost eclipsed by the darkness

• Love is mocked as weak and ineffective
as are compassion and empathy

• Integrity is hard to find in words or actions
(who knows what “integrity” is – the definition)

• GOD has also been declared weak and
ineffective – replaced by the god of wealth
and power, selfishness, and greed
(putting “self” first seems to sell)

• Hope wanes in the hearts of many as the
darkness seems to have drawn so many
into its blinding, emotionally-charged
invitation to “ride this train,” become
a member of this “team” – belong to
the Make Me First Again “team”
so I get what I want, what I deserve

• Truth has, amazingly, been relegated to
second place to “alternative facts”

Sadly, many of those yelling the loudest are
carrying flags that read “christian” along with
the signs that declare a man to be the one
who will “save” them and are angered when
anyone speaks the message of Jesus to them

HOWEVER . . .
I CHOOSE to believe that our known history confirms
the power of Light overcomes darkness in time and
those who have been blinded by darkness will have
their eyes opened and hearts can be healed and
restored to wholeness – that, sadly, it sometimes takes
extreme struggles to stop humans in their tracks so they
can see how far they have chosen to walk away from
who they were created to be – to see they have followed
a “pied piper” playing music to tickle their ears and
appeal to their baser nature BUT GOD never stops
calling to our hearts to remember who we are and to
honor the divine in each of us . . .

SO, the higher path, the harder road to walk as defined
for me by me . . .

LOVE – love GOD, love neighbor, love enemies
INTEGRITY – examine self deeply and as honestly
as possible, humbly without condemnation
– line up my walk with my talk
GOD – seek GOD, focus on the invisible attributes
and character values to be reflected in
my life and refuse to focus on judging others
HOPE – know that GOD is GOD, faithful and sure
– GOD is the Source of All for All
– trust in the Promises and outworking of GOD
TRUTH – the plumb line of Life written on our hearts and
minds, revealed by the spirit is present within me
– IF I listen to the guidance of the spirit, I can know
when something is not in line with Truth (I do not
need to consume garbage to know I do not want it)

as a follower of Jesus, I believe:
• Jesus is the LIGHT of the world
Then Jesus again spoke to them, saying,
“I am the Light of the world;
the one who follows Me will not walk in the darkness,
but will have the Light of life.”
John 8:12
• the Truth will set me free
you will know the truth,
and the truth will set you free.
John 8:32

I watched as the massive beast was slowly rising,
terror struck like a hard punch to my stomach . . .
there was nowhere to go to get away from those big sharp teeth as the beast turned and
its mouth crushed everything in its path . . .

like a scene from a horror movie, the beast continued to rise
until it towered over me and I shrank back in fear trying to hide in the shadows—
as I watched, the beast seemed familiar – like I had seen it before . . .

I noticed that the “sheep’s clothing” the beast had worn was falling away from it
revealing a powerful wolf-like creature that was intent on the destruction of all it saw –
lying all around the beast, pieces of that clothing were discarded as no longer needed . . .
was that a smile? strangely, I could see some words were on slips of paper that
swirled in a whirlwind of unidentifiable debris – I saw total destruction in the wake
of the beast as its hunger crushed and then consumed all before it –
I turned away, terrified at the “vision” before my eyes . . .

a huge beast – a powerful mouth – an unstoppable force had appeared,
a nightmare unfolded before me and I could do nothing but watch . . .
out of the whirlwind, some words seemed to call out: “come on, let’s fix this,”
“you have been mistreated,”
“you deserve more,”
“I am the only one who can save you,”
“crush our enemies so right can be great again” —
was that the beast speaking? that voice, that horrible voice seemed familiar . . .

– – – – – – –
I was shaking as I woke up from this nightmare/vision – it had seemed so real—
what could it mean? was it a warning? what did the “beast” I saw represent?
was I just being silly over a terrifying nightmare or was it a message?

the “beast” destroyed all by its powerful mouth – that seems important – and
the “sheep’s clothing” falling off might mean the “beast” was not what it had appeared to be,
was deceptive and the words it spoke would appeal to and deceive many

maybe the appeal of the words blinded me and others and made it possible
for the “beast” to grow huge, to become an unstoppable force . . .
I’ll call it the “Beast of Blindness” that leads me to:
• see what I want to see,
• believe what I want to believe,
• hear what I want to hear and
• reject what challenges my “blindness” so MY story can be THE “truth”
regardless of the picture before my eyes blinded
by my own wants and “needs” which could result in the creation of
some often unexpected, repulsive “beasts” in my world

As MY rationalizations (sheep’s clothing) slip away and
the real “beast” is seen for what it is (a hard thing to do), I can either:
• defend my “Beast of Blindness” and
try to put the sheep’s clothing back on my beast or
• I can accept the humiliation of admitting I was a victim
of the “Beast of Blindness” and try to live through it . . .
hard, hard on my ego – almost impossible!

the “Beast of Blindness” can draw anyone into its story
by using fear, promises of wealth and power, enforcer of “right,” or revenge . . .
as long as “blindness” is embraced and shared with others and
total unquestioning loyalty to the “beast” is demonstrated, anyone can join

Enticing, a feast of lies prepared to appeal to my negative feelings
and make me a recruiter of others who “see” only
the benefits of the “Beast of Blindness”:
• membership in a “special” group
• shouting the “right” message
• condemning the “wrong” others and stopping them
• making the world by MY agenda and
• squashing the evil dissenters
as the “Beast of Blindness” welcomes all to join the “winning team”
with all deposited into the treasure chest of the “beast” . . .

My nightmare OR a Warning about the Beast of Blindness?

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I have come to think that my understanding
of the “fruit of the Spirit” in Galatians 5
needs a little adjusting, a “minor-appearing”
difference in the way I look at WHO does
WHAT with a potentially major impact

I guess I kind of looked at the list of the
“fruit of the Spirit” as a list of “goals”
for me to attain—
things I needed to develop within myself as
evidence that I was following God and on
the “right path” – characteristics I would see
that would show in me that I was “doing right.”

In some ways that is true, BUT—
now I look at the list more as a list of “energies”
that are developed by the presence of the
Holy Spirit . . . energies that are amazing—
just look at the power of Love and what it
can do –
move mountains,
build something out of nothing,
empower, strengthen, restore—

I seek GOD and GOD’s nature and
spiritual energies of amazing
force flow throughout me energizing and
motivating me,
guiding me into “new” ancient paths
(love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control)
as my “walk’” with GOD reveals to my heart
my choice: my “fleshly nature”
(see works of the flesh)
OR
relationship with GOD which opens me
to the Presence of the Holy Spirit
slowly displacing my human
nature with GOD’s energizing nature.

The difference is in WHO develops the inner
“environment” within me on this list—
me or GOD.

IF it is NOT me, then the time and energy I spend
feeling that I have failed in one or more ways is
a waste and I can be distracted
from my primary mission of seeking GOD
by trying to do this impossible task for myself
instead of following the path of my mission
and letting the “helper” Jesus promised
do the work GOD assigns to all of creation.

I need to “seek GOD” as repeatedly commanded
in the Scriptures
and
let GOD do what GOD wants to do:
conform me to the image of Jesus
(“to become conformed to the
image of His Son” Romans 8:29)

ME or GOD? that is the question—
who can draw me into Love that serves
without self regard,
who can prompt joy in the
midst of the ashes of my life,
who can plant peace that passes understanding
in a heart burdened beyond hope,
who can infuse life-sustaining patience
to one in despair of what is seen all around . . .
what is my answer?
ME or GOD . . .

Oh, the depth of the riches,
both of the wisdom and knowledge of God!
How unsearchable are His judgments and
unfathomable His ways!
Romans 11:33