Writing a book has been in my thoughts for many years and I have actually started a number of books, but have never finished any to this point.
My main motivation for starting a book was to explore traumas in the hope that it might help someone else who was going through dark times to have hope that they, too, could survive and come out on the other side of the pain. However, I soon discovered that writing those stories would mean I would have to experience them again, re-live the trauma.
Like talking with a therapist, I began “talking” to the page in front of me while calling the past to mind and trying to honestly recount the event and my feelings, exploring my part in each trauma and trying to understand the reasons anyone else involved might have been involved and why they might have done what they did—not in an attempt to assign guilt, but in an attempt to understand.
It became clear that this process overwhelmed me very quickly and each time I reached that emotional overload, I would stop writing that book. What also became clear was that I made a little more progress each time I started “another book.” So, the process was working to help me very slowly release some of the darkness embedded with each trauma—almost imperceptibly, I was healing and, over the years I have released many of the harmful feelings associated with those traumas—all because of writing.
Sharing with others and finding some who care about that pain, those wounds and how the trauma played out in other choices shines a light on the “cycles” of wounding and healing and I say—every blog written is a part of the writer’s autobiography and provides a way to process through to healing . . . so, write on . . . right on!