JOY – Bah! Humbug!!!

Bah! Humbug!!! YAY, Scrooge!
I cannot tell you how many times I have felt like
saying that over the last few years of constant chaos and turmoil,
as I see the apparent loss of accurate knowledge of history
or the Bible or the teachings of the life of Jesus
with a YouTube channel making “experts” of charismatic,
authoritative-sounding persons who sell hate and violence—
SAD! Where’s the JOY?

BUT . . . with a Judeo-Christian background,
experiences in the world of the occult, studies in many
philosophies (Hinduism, Buddhism, Zen, transcendental meditation,
New Age, various “religious” new believer classes, and more),
I have concluded that my belief system is a combination of “truths”
I found in each of those experiences leading me to believe—

MY JOY IS MY CHOICE of combos:
• I choose my “filters” that determine how I see everything
• I choose my “focus” each moment
• I choose my “responses” to everything, good and bad
• I choose my “acceptance” of whatever is presented
• I choose my “memories” to hold onto
• I choose my “priorities”
• I choose my “commitments”

My past is littered with traumas, some to levels of deepest agony,
some that robbed me of non-recoverable “things,”
some that led me to the end of myself and the choice to live or die –
I chose to die, which obviously did not happen, but that is another story.
The point is: at the point I decided to end it all, people and events
had brought me to believe there was nothing I had left to value
or appreciate, not even myself–I was past depression into total acceptance of defeat.

After much time spent healing (an ongoing process still today),
I realized the most important TRUTH . . . I have a choice.
It has taken many years to reach the above list of a “combo” and
it will probably continue to change as life goes on—
and even that is my choice!
I can choose to “become,” to change as I live,
to embrace life as I see it and adjust as I think best FOR ME,
and to feel JOY in knowing . . . MY JOY IS MY CHOICE –
even Scrooge found that out!

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About Jeanne

a work in progress . . . God's grace has brought me through many traumas of varying intensities and I am alive today (both physically & spiritually) because of Him and His work: "For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus"-Philippians 1:6. My childhood was spent living in many places in the United States due to my family's music or ministry—The Hicks Family, made up of Olan & Barbara Hicks, my younger brothers, Clint & Chuck & me, sang in different combos (put out an album), does so no longer professionally . . . but, visit a family gathering in Searcy & you're bound to hear some foot-tapping sounds (or catch my dad & mom on the road)! I believe that every moment of each life path (the good & what I perceive as the bad) God works together for my good as His child whether I understand it or not. MUSIC and MINISTRY are still primary aspects of the path God has me walking—so exciting! Words that have encouraged me since 1980: ". . . giving them a garland instead of ashes,The oil of gladness instead of mourning,The mantle of praise instead of a spirit of fainting So they will be called oaks of righteousness,The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified." Isaiah 61:3
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3 Responses to JOY – Bah! Humbug!!!

  1. Ernie Boxall says:

    At 73 years old and through the medium of storytelling, I suddenly discovered that my life is my fault…or rather, my choices. And some of them have been terrible, mean, hurtful and selfish. But do you know? Changing my choices would have changed where I am…and where I am, ain’t too bad.
    Funnily enough, one of the roles I’ve just played was Grumpas…a take on anti-Santa Krampus…quite fun…so Bah Humbug Lol

  2. Getting to exercise the choice about what makes life a joy vs. what doesn’t is, that individual decision is priceless.

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