Bah! Humbug!!! YAY, Scrooge!
I cannot tell you how many times I have felt like
saying that over the last few years of constant chaos and turmoil,
as I see the apparent loss of accurate knowledge of history
or the Bible or the teachings of the life of Jesus
with a YouTube channel making “experts” of charismatic,
authoritative-sounding persons who sell hate and violence—
SAD! Where’s the JOY?

BUT . . . with a Judeo-Christian background,
experiences in the world of the occult, studies in many
philosophies (Hinduism, Buddhism, Zen, transcendental meditation,
New Age, various “religious” new believer classes, and more),
I have concluded that my belief system is a combination of “truths”
I found in each of those experiences leading me to believe—

MY JOY IS MY CHOICE of combos:
• I choose my “filters” that determine how I see everything
• I choose my “focus” each moment
• I choose my “responses” to everything, good and bad
• I choose my “acceptance” of whatever is presented
• I choose my “memories” to hold onto
• I choose my “priorities”
• I choose my “commitments”
MY JOY COMBO is MY CHOICE

My past is littered with traumas, some to levels of deepest agony,
some that robbed me of non-recoverable “things,”
some that led me to the end of myself and the choice to live or die –
I chose to die, which obviously did not happen, but that is another story.
The point is: at the point I decided to end it all, people and events
had brought me to believe there was nothing I had left to value
or appreciate, not even myself–I was past depression into total acceptance of defeat.

After much time spent healing (an ongoing process still today),
I realized the most important TRUTH . . . I have a choice.
It has taken many years to reach the above list of a “combo” and
it will probably continue to change as life goes on—
and even that is my choice!
I can choose to “become,” to change as I live,
to embrace life as I see it and adjust as I think best FOR ME,
and to feel JOY in knowing . . . MY JOY IS MY CHOICE –
even Scrooge found that out!

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