• a Self Portrait
A TV show actually drew me to look more closely at the Fibonacci sequence— “God Friended Me” episodes were based on questions about patterns and an unseen guide to “coincidences” in life that we often don’t see. (I wish this show had been able to continue, but it was cancelled due to the Covid-19 health crisis.)
However, it started me thinking about my life — many traumas, many diverse experiences that seemed disconnected, so many twists and turns that I could fill a bookcase with novels based on unique “events” that, in review, do seem to lead one to the other and, obviously, brought me to where I am today. So, I did an overview that brought me to “A Self Portrait.” This should probably be a part of the blog I have been doing “Seeking the Way: exploring the path of a seeker,” but I am still working on part 4 in that series and this just seemed to be what I needed to look at before continuing my thoughts on my path to this point . . . an insert to examine my perspective as I look at a pivotal time in my seeking the Way, a time of transition, a time of inner turmoil with me fighting with me and a time that turned out to be major surgery, healing, and deep digging up of many old foundations while learning to “rest” in not demanding understanding at each point, but trusting the “sequence” to lead me toward Truth.
SO, I looked up information on the Fibonacci sequence, the definition and some of what others had written about it:
The Fibonacci sequence is a famous group of numbers beginning with 0 and 1 in which each number is the sum of the two before it. It begins 0, 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21 and continues infinitely. The pattern hides a powerful secret: If you divide each number in the sequence by its predecessor (except for 1 divided by 0), then as you move toward higher numbers, the result converges on the constant phi, or approximately 1.61803, otherwise known as the golden ratio.
A set of numbers with properties related to many natural phenomena . . . pine cones, the number of petals in each layer of certain flowers, sunflower seeds, mollusk shells, and in many more areas, “The Golden Ratio’s attractiveness stems first and foremost from the fact that it has an almost uncanny way of popping up where it is least expected,” writes Mario Livio in The Golden Ratio: The Story of Phi, the World’s Most Astonishing Number, ISBN-13 : 978-0767908160
Publisher : Crown; Illustrated edition (September 23, 2003) available at Amazon.
That is the context of my “Self Portrait” at this point in my life of measureable time . . . a step toward where I have always been, where I started from, having those questions always in my heart: is there something bigger than me? is there a plan for my life? is there purpose in my path? is life a classroom or simply a “here today, gone tomorrow” segment leading to nothing?
who am I . . . what am I . . . why am I . . . where am I . . . how am I?
LEAD ON, Fibonacci, and, somehow, I KNOW my heart mind will “see” GOD!